tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-88884263139465039952024-03-12T20:31:34.668-07:00These are the days of my life... HAHHA NOT!!!!here i will be venting about whats bothering me. just saying whats on my mind at the moment feel free to let others no!Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.comBlogger79125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-88695982439715390732011-07-28T12:52:00.000-07:002011-07-28T12:55:10.334-07:00today is a better daySo i dont know what hit me i think it was everything with my mom, and then hearing about my dad, then i starting feeling down and so i had like a mini freakout and used my weight as the sorce..... but i hate when that happens and sumtimes i think its just life stresseses me out that i need a way to relieve it...<br /><br />today is a better day, even tho i dont feel good nore does anyone else in this house but i had some good friends support me and send me a pick ups and i am thankful for that....<br /><br />sometimes we all have a bad day and i guess last night was just mine lol.....<br /><br />anyways.... lets hope the rest of the day is good!Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-86571426690401056242011-07-27T22:53:00.000-07:002011-07-27T23:01:48.828-07:00I want to be hotSo i have decided that i must diet in anyway possible. i must lose weight any way possible..i want to be skinny, hot and super sexy, i want that when i walk into walmart people stare at me with the oooo she is so hot look.... welll maybe not that far but i want to be able to by the super small cloths. i want to strolle but the pool and not let it bother me how i look and that i can say this is me, i have had 2 kids and you know i am awesome...<br /><br />Will it happen i doubt...<br /><br />Do i want it to happen sure hope so......<br /><br />i think i am gonna try to work out everyday.. start out small and then work up....<br /><br />if i have to starve i have to starve i did it in high school and lost a crap load of weight while being hooked on slim fast i hate if for lunch breakfast snack dinner and everything i can do it again.....<br /><br />i give my self one year to to get to the weight of 120... 110 would be better but i ll take 120.....<br /><br />so tomorrow it starts....<br />i am gonna go to the gym... just drink water all day.. and eat maybe a salad....<br />and see how that goes.....<br /><br />and if i keep it up.. maybe something good will come out of it.....<br /><br />i just wish i had support. someone i can tell and not judge i have jay but i want a friend.. someone outside my relationship who understands how i feel....<br /><br />i think i just need to believe in myself.....<br />it just so hard any more with everything going on with my parents and what not.<br /><br />I think i am so ashamed i have let myself go. that i have like turned into a blob of nothing that just here to take care of my family i think if i was skinny and took care of my family i would be more happier.. iam tired of the fake ur pretty it looks nice.. no your not fat. just say it you all you know you wanna.. just tell me to my face and quit sugar coating it...<br /><br />i think i am letting this controll my life cuz its bothering me to a point of things that use to make me happy are not any more really so i need to make the change and only i can get my self skinny no one else can....<br /><br />i just dont know why i am letting it controll me so much. i wish i new :(<br /><br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-42652832875774440872011-07-24T23:37:00.000-07:002011-07-24T23:47:52.203-07:00Yes were a anime family get over it!So for 2 years now my son has been dressing up as little armstrong from full metal alchemist.. and he loves it. Yes we are a family of anime lovers. and guess what things and people in our lives make you change. You know you cant be 16 forever. We all have to grow up and as we grow up and be adults and parents and what not and have love in our life and when we find that one we want to be with forever you learn to make changes in your life for the good and some are also for the bad.....<br /><br />Now people have known me from the past to be a *gangsta take no shit kinda person* guess what.. that was then this is now.. and now i am a adult and i realize that if i go and kick your ass for you being ratard... for saying or looking at me wrong... you know where thats gonna get me know where....<br /><br />I have 2 kids that i have to think about before i act.. and you out there who dont have kids will learn that when you do...<br /><br />now most say that jay has changed me. maybe he has.. maybe he hasnt i am not one to say he has completly i think that as i get older i start to relieze that stupid shit dont matter no more and other things do.....<br /><br />YES I like anime and guess what YES I LIKE PLAYING WOW(world of warcraft) if that makes me a nerd so be it. but this nerd can still kick anyones ass if needed, HAHA....<br /><br />but its hard to believe that people in this world think they will be young and 16 forever and couldnt have a care in the world and before anyone gets there boxers and panties in a knot please take your finger and pull them out if i didnt say your name i am not talking about you...<br /><br />i just see people everyday acting and saying shit thats like dude i am to old for that....<br /><br />Anime is not for everyone.. and guess what yes i let my kids watch anime. i take them to anime events and i let them dress up!... its all for fun and when they are old enough and dont want to do it oh well ill understand.. but anyways for 2 years now jase has been armstrong and he is so cute this year we let brina dress up as seeing what happen when she didnt wasnt something i wanted to go thru again... lol and they had a blast and they already looking forward to the next year.. his jase page i made feel free to look around and like!....<br /><br />well enough anime bitching...<br />time to go get a drink and maybe think about some hot anime guys HAHA lol<br /><br />Jessica<br /><br /><a href="http://http//www.facebook.com/pages/Little-Armstrong-inc/123825807705078">http://http://www.facebook.com/pages/Little-Armstrong-inc/123825807705078</a>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-4676844650314642572011-07-24T14:07:00.000-07:002011-07-24T14:09:54.172-07:00blog remodel.So i have decided that i am letting life things stress be out. People, events, drama and such and i am starting to relize that i need to let it out sometimes so i plan on venting. bitching, complaining, crying, whining and all the above ... So if your a follower and you dont like to hear that crap feel free to leave if your not a follower and would like to hear my opionions on life feel free to follow. ..... the more the marrier LOL....<br /><br />So i am updating my and changing the ways of my blog its gonna be the good the bad and the ugly! lol...<br /><br /><br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-72787199854562457102011-01-09T13:46:00.000-08:002011-01-09T13:52:41.983-08:00the start of 2011<span class="Apple-style-span" >So the start of 2011 has been interesting nothing major really has happen other then my mom having her surgery and then having sum major set back and its been really really stressful for that. Then my son's birthday is in a few weeks so I am planing that. He will be 4 yrs old he's growing up so fast.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >Then I have to take them to the doctor for there check ups and I have to get things ready for Brina to start school she will be starting this year and I am really really excited but its a lot of work to get thing ready.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >And then, so far me, and the 2 kids have been sick and well thats just stinks....i have cleaned up more throw up and poop in like 2 days its unreal lol......</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >soooo... now I just need to get my house back in order and that would be great. lets hope it happens. lo</span></div>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-27961874939449289202010-12-22T09:30:00.001-08:002010-12-22T09:30:51.067-08:00Headache.... I am seeming toHeadache.... <br>I am seeming to have a huge headache today when i dont want to. Its the holiday time but i just feel crappy .. I wish i was happy.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-11834831802595786762010-12-22T09:23:00.001-08:002010-12-22T09:23:16.279-08:00Test *Jessica*Test<br>*Jessica*Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-43749404654124463762010-12-02T21:35:00.000-08:002010-12-02T21:46:34.176-08:00life is lifeSo lets see the holidays are a pone us know... we had Thanksgiving. and that was a very good day.. it was good food and i made a home aide cheesecake. and Jay made a really good dinner. and it was awesome. we only had his aunt and cousin over but it was still nice.. <br /><br />then before that i had painted a garage for the first time and that came out really really nice and i am happy i did it for his aunt and was able to help her out. <br /><br />So Brina lost her first tooth. she lost it a couple of days ago and the tooth fairy came and she was super excited but i am glad she is growing up...<br /><br />so this year we decided to something different and we decided to get a real Christmas tree then a fake and i have to say it was really nice to see the look on the kids faces to see how happy they were to picked it out and its exciting to have it here in our house but it smells so pine-y but its good......<br /><br />Brina's birthday is less then 11 days away and i have to start planing that and see what i can do for that. she will be 5 yrs old and my daughter is growing up so fast but is also turning into a diva herself. LOL.... but she gets her little attitude from me ha ha but its all good. :P<br /><br />anyways... i am just sitting here relaxing the kids are in bed and hubby wont be home for a few hours due to sum training class he had to take so its nice to have me time. i never get to have it but guess what i am kinda bored HA-HA... its so quiet and the tree is so pretty to look at but... I just don't know whats troubling me. why i am feeling down or so blue. i wish i new what was really bugging me but one wont know.. i mean this year is almost over and we have been thru a lot. and i sit and wonder what will next year have in store for us. what will come or be put in our way! you know? is it bad that i sit and wonder that? I also wonder what will happen with relationships new and old and friends i have new and old. and i also just wonder what will happen to my life and Sabrina, and Jase and my parents since right now they going thru sum tough stuff with there health and what not.. but if i sit here stressing about stuff that hasn't happen or will happen i will only give myself Grey hairs and nothing will come of it!<br /><br /><br />well i think a good book and bath is calling my name... i need it after everything that has been going on with miss diva and my parents until i write again.<br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-83324851712988141952010-09-30T22:28:00.000-07:002010-09-30T22:32:48.933-07:00what a shitty daySo i have learned that people and family can piss me off..... today was suppose to be a great day...but then turn shitty when my kids had there feelings hurt when they didn't get to do what they wanted today....but its okay but I talked to my dad i guess. i got it straighten out but who knows but i am glad I i was able to do things to make them happy today and spend time with them and see there little smiles again, i never new how bad it would hurt my heart to see them sad... I dont like seeing them upset.. then its turns out that jay had... a shitty day.. all together... we all had a crappy day and i hope that every one has a better day and a good night sleep tonight and tomorrow rocks but one will never know....<br /><br /><br />lets see shall we....<br /><br /><br />until tomorrow....Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-3009582991037265802010-09-29T16:41:00.000-07:002010-09-29T16:41:50.289-07:00Laundry song i love itthis is so funny.<br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i4.ytimg.com/vi/7LCW5op1Hh4/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/7LCW5op1Hh4?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/7LCW5op1Hh4?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-21958571262956774582010-09-29T16:02:00.000-07:002010-09-29T16:19:38.124-07:00laundry.. and why?Okay so I wake up this morning and was suppose to go to the library to do story time and well that didn't happen my throat and chest was killing me and the whole potty thing is starting again. maybe i am dying sigh....<br /><br />then today is laundry day and it seems it will never end its driving me nuts. sigh.. it just keeps going and going... lol but its part of being and mom and i love it...<br /><br />i just hate doing this crap when i dont feel good at least the kids are sleeping and i can do it in peace and not have them bugging me... lol... <br /><br />only one weill know if i ever feel better. Sigh.Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-31185976602915249972010-09-28T01:42:00.000-07:002010-09-28T01:42:26.402-07:00ahh the old days :P love this song.Shallow Day -TWILIGHT (what have you done to my wife?)this is a awesome song i love it :P brings up memories :P<br /><br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i1.ytimg.com/vi/XVy8Dr_SxWg/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/XVy8Dr_SxWg?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/XVy8Dr_SxWg?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-58099717244443890162010-09-28T01:26:00.000-07:002010-09-28T01:30:47.674-07:00hmmm? why must we be so sickSo i am tired of us being sick. its like me and the kids and whole family cant stop being sick and it sucks i mean i don't mind if i am sick. but i hate when the whole family is.. It just brings me down and I get backed up on things that need to be done.<br /><br />So lots have been going on since i last wrote other then me being sick. My grandmother died. that was tough. i went to Cali to see everyone and the funeral and it was a great time glad i went and everyone got to meet my family. i was scared but its over. my dad is doing okay.<br /><br />My mom's health is going down hill. she might have cancer and if she does that will be hard to deal with.. even tho i know i get mad at her. and frustrated. she is still my mom.. so i have been dealing with that.....<br /><br />umm... nothing other then that.. friends.. well lets say i don't have any anymore. i am tired of being friends when people want me to be. everyone seems to be "to busy" is what everyone tells me but i know thats shit cuz they hang out with others but its okay i dont care really... anyways gonna go...<br />ill write later...<br /><br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-67949442699190025462010-07-10T10:51:00.000-07:002010-07-10T10:51:06.292-07:00A word from our Sponsors AMV2010this is the best AMV from our vacation i love the song come on you know you wanna dance :P<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i3.ytimg.com/vi/jBQC6DVORyY/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/jBQC6DVORyY&hl=en_US&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/jBQC6DVORyY&hl=en_US&fs=1" width="480" height="295" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-8453737596660594552010-07-10T10:06:00.000-07:002010-07-10T10:07:06.500-07:00vacation 2010some of the pictures from our trip<br /><br /><br /><table cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" border="0" bgcolor="#ffffff"><tr><td><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/play/4d5463344d7a41344e54493d0d0a&blogview=true&campaign=blog_playback_link" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="303" alt="Click to play this Smilebox collage: vacation 2010" src="http://www.smilebox.com/snap/4d5463344d7a41344e54493d0d0a.jpg" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/?partner=smilebox&campaign=blog_snapshot" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="46" alt="Create your own collage - Powered by Smilebox" src="http://www.smilebox.com/globalImages/blogInstructions/blogLogoSmileboxSmall.gif" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td align="center">A picture collage by Smilebox</td></tr></table>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-76117329734687766352010-07-10T09:54:00.001-07:002010-07-10T09:58:41.885-07:00been busyWell i seem to be getting busier and busier. First off we has our vacation which turned into a epic failure that we ended up coming home early which really sucked. The convention wasn't the best this year. and then the guys we were with were crying like little babies that ruined the whole trip for me.. but little man dressed up this year and that was awesome he looked so cute and his moment of fame he needed it cuz Brina is always in the spot light. Then lets see i had my birthday on the 8th. I am 25 now.. joy. lol.... I had a wonder date with jay and I loved it. My mother's day gift is finally coming today. its also part of my birthday present. My 7 piece sectional couch is coming today and i should be getting ready for it instead i am on here LOL...<br /><br />anyways <br />gonna go will write later<br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-63932845448473963762010-05-13T08:02:00.000-07:002010-05-13T08:11:44.848-07:00new startSo this week has been stressful. Everything went well with my surgery and i am glad that i no longer have headaches its a nice relief. .... but Monday we are moving and that its stressful but were having people move us so that's is gonna make it easier. I am also excited i got my mothers day gifts which is a 7 piece sectional couch it will be here in 4 weeks so i cant wait. Today i have to go run arr-ens and go shopping get the mail change and what not so that will be fun... but ya... i am back to making tags again and i am loving it :P its great...<br /><br /><br />well i gotta goJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-80909371478076188002010-05-06T16:52:00.000-07:002010-05-06T17:03:19.352-07:00fakenessI have learned that people change. some for the good some for the worst. i am tired of the people here in Vegas. iam tired of my so called friends. or the people who are dying to be my friends just plain getting on my nerves. i am tired of the smile in you face one minute. you don't exist the next minute,i am tired of the texts here and there and then nothing. or text me bitching how i am not the friend i should be. DAMNIT back off. i am only one person. iam me. i am annoyed. i am angry. i am frankly finding new people to talk to. i am deleting my phone contacts. and friend list and starting over. people here are shit. so you want to treat me like shit ill treat you like shit. let see who will win.<br /><br />now to thos who i am not angry with. don't take this to heart. don't think i am aiming this at u. if you do then your a fuckin retard. cuz unless i say your name its not about you....... so if i get a text from anyone saying this was about them i am frankly deleting it.... <br /><br />i am really annoyed. hurt. and angry...<br /><br />not the day..Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-4202054057461425172010-03-16T11:11:00.000-07:002010-03-16T11:15:36.973-07:00been a while because i forgot my password.Hahah well all goes to show you should write everything down. were doing great. things are great. life is stressful. we are in the process of looking for a new car. were also doing somethings with legal matters, about our condo. i am having surgery in april. then were also got to do our cellphones. and then we are also gonna be moving since our lease is almost up and i want a one story house and then next week were going to cali for a few days I am so excited. then i watch my friends daughter a few times a week so i am always busy and gone .... and never ending or stoping but its the part of life LOL... just wish i could sleep in one day lol.<br /><br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-23652487413627764492009-11-04T09:12:00.000-08:002009-11-04T09:13:07.919-08:00our trip<table cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" border="0" bgcolor="#ffffff"><tr><td><a href="http://smilebox.com/play/4d5449794d7a41354e7a593d0d0a&blogview=true&campaign=blog_playback_link" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="303" alt="Click to play this Smilebox slideshow: our trip" src="http://smilebox.com/snap/4d5449794d7a41354e7a593d0d0a.jpg" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/?partner=smilebox&campaign=blog_snapshot" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="46" alt="Create your own slideshow - Powered by Smilebox" src="http://www.smilebox.com/globalImages/blogInstructions/blogLogoSmileboxSmall.gif" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td align="center"><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/slideshows" target="_blank">Make a Smilebox slideshow</a></td></tr></table>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-29336567361993761572009-11-04T08:17:00.001-08:002009-11-04T08:17:19.244-08:00our halloween<table cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" border="0" bgcolor="#ffffff"><tr><td><a href="http://smilebox.com/play/4d5449794d7a41774e6a453d0d0a&blogview=true&campaign=blog_playback_link" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="303" alt="Click to play this Smilebox slideshow: our halloween 09" src="http://smilebox.com/snap/4d5449794d7a41774e6a453d0d0a.jpg" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/?partner=smilebox&campaign=blog_snapshot" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="46" alt="Create your own slideshow - Powered by Smilebox" src="http://www.smilebox.com/globalImages/blogInstructions/blogLogoSmileboxSmall.gif" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td align="center"><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/slideshows" target="_blank">Make a Smilebox slideshow</a></td></tr></table>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-86223703178623641932009-11-02T17:55:00.000-08:002009-11-02T17:56:50.584-08:00that time of year againso its that time of year where life is crazy and busy and i love it, we had halloween and had our annviersary and ill be sharing the pics from the fun we had i hope you all enjoy!<br /><br />this is our pumpkin carving!~<br /><br /><table cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" border="0" bgcolor="#ffffff"><tr><td><a href="http://smilebox.com/play/4d5449794d4445774d446b3d0d0a&blogview=true&campaign=blog_playback_link" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="303" alt="Click to play this Smilebox slideshow: out pumpkin carving!" src="http://smilebox.com/snap/4d5449794d4445774d446b3d0d0a.jpg" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/?partner=smilebox&campaign=blog_snapshot" target="_blank"><img width="386" height="46" alt="Create your own slideshow - Powered by Smilebox" src="http://www.smilebox.com/globalImages/blogInstructions/blogLogoSmileboxSmall.gif" style="border: medium none ;"/></a></td></tr><tr><td align="center"><a href="http://www.smilebox.com/slideshows" target="_blank">Make a Smilebox slideshow</a></td></tr></table>Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-16376665804289767842009-10-30T10:15:00.000-07:002009-10-30T10:16:25.797-07:00reopen my blogso i reopen my blog and deleted somethings that didnt need to be read i feel better now and there is no need for them to be on here :P so i am getting ready for tomorrow and i have lots to do :(Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-80156761685335948082009-10-23T21:24:00.001-07:002009-10-23T21:36:25.669-07:00frustrated and thoughts on thingsYou this week lots of things have frustrated me, from home life to my kids, but i let it go, somethings i just dont understand anymore, and it frustrated me, i mean how many times must u tell a kid to pee in the potty its like talking to a brick wall, and i am to my witts end with him, sabrina is doing good she is sleeping and not peeing in her bed and i am so proud of her it makes me happy and thats what i need right now, i mean after all this frustrating crap stuff like that makes me happy and stuff like this is what being a mom is all about. <br /><br />so halloween is coming up and i am excited to a point, i mean i havent even started thinking about it yet adn what i am going to do, i will be married 4 years on halloween and i am happy about that and i dont think were doing anything since its halloween and we will be doing the day for the kids but oh well thats how it goes....<br /><br />then after halloween i have my driving test and well i hope i pass i know it will make lots of people happy but mainly it will make me happy its what i need, its what i want, and i hope i can pass damnit i know i fucking can i just hate our truck but if i think of it as a escalade it will be great.<br /><br />My dad seems to be doing okay with the lost of his daughter he dont really want to talk about it and i dont blame him i dont talk about it either its not my place, but other then that i am fine. nothing is going on, i had fun at fright dome i had fun speading the day with hubby need more of them, want more of them wish for of them but oh well, it was also very upsetting, i mean they say all this saw crap and and there was one thing,but i did see micheal myers and that was cool he was tall but still scary. and i cryed on the chaos cuz I HATE that ride but i was more worried about hubby i seem to worrie about others more then myself but thats how i am. but i had fun but not wortht the money could have bough something else.<br /><br />anyways i have been depressed lately mainly personal issues i have with myself but oh well ill deal with them i always do, i thinik if i get my liceance ill go to the gym, might as well feel hot again, need that feeling havent felt that in a while but oh well, i mean i liked to be back to the size i was in school, i will say i was pretty smoken back then HAHAHA .. ya anyways moving on.....<br /><br />so brina birthday is coming up soon and i dont know what i want to get her, i know that if i get my licance i want to put her in dance class and maybe go back to school or do online school so i am more then just a mom, and have something else behind me, i think being a party planner/wedding planner would be cool, or being a nurse might be fun but ihate needles so no, but who knows havent thought of it much, but this year is almost over and there has been lots of deaths and i hope next year is better and i hope to have a car and licance to go room room, well i better go i have a headache, <br /><br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8888426313946503995.post-24961880736253038102009-10-20T09:28:00.000-07:002009-10-20T09:32:26.884-07:00lots going onWell were finally get back to normal after all the deaths we have had, we had hubby's sister, my sister then hubbys mom. but were finally get passed and doing normal things, first off, hubby and i had a date night we went to fright dome i was so excited it was saw themed well, we got there and guess what, it wasnt worth it there was only one saw thing, so i was sad, but i had fun being scared and riding the rides it was a good night not having the kids, then i got my permit re instated and guess what i take my test next month on the 23 at 2:00 i am so scared but everyone says i can do it and i know i can, so then, we also have halloween in 2 weeks and hubby and i will be married 4 years yay. i am excited about that man life has been crazy and really busy the last month and its not gonna settled down untill april LOL..<br /><br /><br />well thought i would update its been a while its cuz i forgot my password LOL and with everything going on its been hard to keep up but ill up date more i promise. <br /><br />anyways better go.<br />JessicaJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02288932792139264616noreply@blogger.com0