frustrated and thoughts on things

You this week lots of things have frustrated me, from home life to my kids, but i let it go, somethings i just dont understand anymore, and it frustrated me, i mean how many times must u tell a kid to pee in the potty its like talking to a brick wall, and i am to my witts end with him, sabrina is doing good she is sleeping and not peeing in her bed and i am so proud of her it makes me happy and thats what i need right now, i mean after all this frustrating crap stuff like that makes me happy and stuff like this is what being a mom is all about.

so halloween is coming up and i am excited to a point, i mean i havent even started thinking about it yet adn what i am going to do, i will be married 4 years on halloween and i am happy about that and i dont think were doing anything since its halloween and we will be doing the day for the kids but oh well thats how it goes....

then after halloween i have my driving test and well i hope i pass i know it will make lots of people happy but mainly it will make me happy its what i need, its what i want, and i hope i can pass damnit i know i fucking can i just hate our truck but if i think of it as a escalade it will be great.

My dad seems to be doing okay with the lost of his daughter he dont really want to talk about it and i dont blame him i dont talk about it either its not my place, but other then that i am fine. nothing is going on, i had fun at fright dome i had fun speading the day with hubby need more of them, want more of them wish for of them but oh well, it was also very upsetting, i mean they say all this saw crap and and there was one thing,but i did see micheal myers and that was cool he was tall but still scary. and i cryed on the chaos cuz I HATE that ride but i was more worried about hubby i seem to worrie about others more then myself but thats how i am. but i had fun but not wortht the money could have bough something else.

anyways i have been depressed lately mainly personal issues i have with myself but oh well ill deal with them i always do, i thinik if i get my liceance ill go to the gym, might as well feel hot again, need that feeling havent felt that in a while but oh well, i mean i liked to be back to the size i was in school, i will say i was pretty smoken back then HAHAHA .. ya anyways moving on.....

so brina birthday is coming up soon and i dont know what i want to get her, i know that if i get my licance i want to put her in dance class and maybe go back to school or do online school so i am more then just a mom, and have something else behind me, i think being a party planner/wedding planner would be cool, or being a nurse might be fun but ihate needles so no, but who knows havent thought of it much, but this year is almost over and there has been lots of deaths and i hope next year is better and i hope to have a car and licance to go room room, well i better go i have a headache,

Jessica

lots going on

Well were finally get back to normal after all the deaths we have had, we had hubby's sister, my sister then hubbys mom. but were finally get passed and doing normal things, first off, hubby and i had a date night we went to fright dome i was so excited it was saw themed well, we got there and guess what, it wasnt worth it there was only one saw thing, so i was sad, but i had fun being scared and riding the rides it was a good night not having the kids, then i got my permit re instated and guess what i take my test next month on the 23 at 2:00 i am so scared but everyone says i can do it and i know i can, so then, we also have halloween in 2 weeks and hubby and i will be married 4 years yay. i am excited about that man life has been crazy and really busy the last month and its not gonna settled down untill april LOL..


well thought i would update its been a while its cuz i forgot my password LOL and with everything going on its been hard to keep up but ill up date more i promise.

anyways better go.
Jessica

sad day yesterday

so yesterday we woke up to upsetting voice mails that hubbys sister was in the hospital and they thought she was brain dead well we left went to the hossy adn turned out we were there all day, adn well it was true after doing a test to make sure, it was very sad and the family decieded in her best to let her go so she passed at 6:53 last night we all said our goodbyes, i couldnt stop crying, i felt horrble and i was trying to be there for hubby, but i was really upset. i felt just so bad, so now eveyrone is going to plan her funneral and we will be having in a few days. but i am still sad, but i wantedt up date on whats been going on.

R.I.P Crystal

monster truck day

so today we took the kids to this event to help sick kids nad we rode this monster truck bus and omg it was freaking fun check out the pics

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

beach fun on 4th of july

so on the 4th of july we went to the beach while one vacation heres all of our fun :P

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

anime expo 2009

so in june 30-july 6 we were on vacation, here is a recap ouf our anime expo trip enjoy :P

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

very sick

so later i will blog about my trip, but right now i want to write about whats going on, few days ago i woke up not able to hear or and have trouble breathing and coughting and i thought it was bronchitis well sabrina got sick too and jay said he didnt feel well either, we wel all went to the the quick care in vegas and that was fun and 1/2 took forever, jay was getting sick so they have him meds to stop it, sabrina has the flew and a ear infection and i am the worst of it, i have a breathing issue that they said that the doc in mesquite should have cought it and gave me a inhaler for it, they said i have asahma, adn that thats why when ever i cough it hurts my chest and turns into broncthits, they said that i was haveing issues breathing in the place so they have me 3 meds, and a treatment cuz they were worried i am on 3 bottles of meds and a inhaler so i now have to find a doctor to make sure i get this checked out, i feel like crap, i cant hear, barely talk and my chest is killing me, oh ya they also told me on top of all this breathing crap i have the flu, lucky me, little man is getting sick now but i am giving him meds and he is getting better, sabrina is getting better, jay is sick, and i am worst, i hate this i hate being sick i just freaking sucks, but now i am worried with this breathing stuff, sigh what to do :(